Pain a fear always growing in me,
joy becoming harder to see,
time comes and goes really fast,
and the first opportunity of the day is often the last.

I struggle to keep an optimistic attitude,
everyday, I hear nonsense I don't care to refute,
each day is a day closer to the last day,
and, unfortunately, time only goes one way.

And everyday it may seem,
like the world enjoys shattering my dreams,
it may seem like I'm going insane,
like my mind's going the wrong way on a one-way lane.

And it seems like my senses are going numb,
and it feels like I'm exceptionally dumb,
I'm great at what I hate,
and what I love I'm not so great.

It feels like I'm a disgrace,
and, yet, I have a smile on my face,
I can tolerate my pain,
my pain won't eat up my brain.

My pain is consuming my soul,
I've lost sight of my goal,
and I'm always wrong in so many ways,
but I keep a smile on my face.

I'm not pretending I know that each breath,
is a breath closer to death,
and that time is cruel,
I may be stupid, but I'm no fool.

I'm lost, but I'll find the way,
everyone's dying, but I'll see the next day,
everything's wrong, but I'll find what I believe,
all I know is pain, but I'll find relief.

There's nothing I truly know,
I'm lost, not sure where to go,
but I'll find a way,
I'll see the next day.